lol... well... as i listen to music tonight after drinking a few drinks I am saddened by a shooting at the sanford parade... I mean wtf...

so stevie nicks is it for the night.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCYAuTFjAL8

Well once again I have been gone a lot but I am not sorry.  I need to reach outside.my comfort zone this year.  And never fa to tell this I love... I love.

Well... its been a while... a lot has changed lol.

I am working f/t again, going to school part time, and helping at the shelter again... a lot lol.

I went to church for about a month - then quit. I just cannot get into it. Maybe its just here - but honestly after a month of it I feel further away from wanting to ever go back... I believe in God and thats where its going to stay. I may never go back to any form of organized religion.

My "friend" who pissed me off - well sadly that friendship is over. I have come to terms with a couple friendships being over except for the formality. There are a couple songs I wish I could mesh together that describe how I feel...



Snuff from Slipknot is pretty close... I am tired of doing what I have always done. Give 100% to those who return 10%, and vice versa.

Tomorrow I get to do something I do not like - I get to accompany a dog to the vet to be put down. there is no glamor is being the one who not only says this must be done, but actually drives the animal to the location. there is no joy in looking at an animal and saying goodbye - even if there is good reason.

I for the most part am doing fine in other areas - unless you count my sleeping schedule. Its terrible, non existant... like now - its 1am and I am not sleeping. I get up in 5 hours. I get to stay up for a long time, get no sleep and do it Saturday too....

One interesting tidbit is this was the week that the healthcare bill was passed. I am not sure how I feel about it - I am about 65% on board. I hate having higher taxes - but it needs to happen. If we dont pay for it up front we all pay for it behind the scenes. its like spaying and neutering... either pay to have it done or pay to have the county kill the over population.

Forgive and forget...

three words, but whoa are they hard to live. 8 months ago I was deeply hurt by a friend and even though I have kinda moved on from it, every now and then I am still filled with ... well rage is a good word for it. Not really at the person, because they are just broken and screwed up like me and everyone else in the world - but at myself for still being so petty as to care and also mad that I cannot just let it go completely.

So... my goal is to start 2010 without any of this baggage... I am not going to get the "I am sorry" that I wish I would get - this individual is just emotionally stunted enough they are unable to comprehend this is what would be nice. I am sure if I asked for it I would get it - but thats like asking for a complement lol. Kinda pointless.

Homeschooling the kids is going so well. I am so blessed to have such great kids who are so smart! Right now Kiteara's friend Rowen is here and they are all out in the living room creating their own monopoly game... down to the real estate cards! smart kids they are! a 13, 12 and 10 year old are all getting along well. All home schooled, and all brilliant.

God is good, and tomorrow I am going to do something i have not done in a long time... wait for it... I am going to church.... with the girls... crazy talk I know lol...

Well in true blogging format I am back to this one... I had a private journal for a while but thats for my ranting about idiots I know and me wishing bad upon them lol.. which I would NEVER do in public... ;-)

Anyway, today was the first day of school for the kids this year. It went really well. Both kids were able to get all their math done in their class time alloted and pretty much everything else they needed to do today. Tomorrow will be hard for Brenden because he will have a lot of writing he has to do. The child hates to write... but I am hoping that will change.

As I write this my foster cat Puff is walking around the house checking everything out... I keep forgetting she is deaf lol. She is a very nice kitty though. She has to go back to the shelter in a week. I will sure miss her - she is so old but is acting and looking 100% better than she did when I brought her here.

I am back in school too - although its mainly just to defer my loans. School at the jr college level is wayyyy cheaper than paying back my loans. I just have to wait until that winning lotto ticket.... ;-)

Well tomorrow Bren does more with europe and asia and africa and Kiteara gets to go and do some observations outside. It should be a good day :-)

I am thankful. I am so thankful for the patience that I know GOD gave me to wait for something to happen. When we wait for so long - or what seems so long for something to happen, we learn alot about ourselves. today I was given a gift and for the moment I am enjoying it. As much as I hoped I did not need something I know that I am wrong and my denial is only part of my survial mechanism. I am not perfect or worthy of having the blessings I am been given, but today... today was a good day.

Thank you.

Hmmm.... how much do I distain my current schedule. Let me count the ways...

1) who enjoys having your weekend on a Wed and Thurs.
2) is 50 cents an hour and talking to REALLY stupid people all day worth it?
3) it will be 2045 before scott and I have a weekend off to go camping in our expensive camper that is mildewing in my driveway.
4) 5p-2am sucks because some loser always calls me at 1:55am with some dramatic problem related to porn/malware/virus/stupidity...
5) I cannot sleep!!!!! I am up all night and sleeping 4 hours in the AM and I am burnt out tired.

ok I am done complaining. life is too short. I just wish I had my same schedule from last quarter :-(

Ugh... today I decided to get my wisdom teeth out. i say decided because I have been trying to do this (half ass try) for about.... 10 years. I had the bottom two out when I was 17, and today I get to get the uppers out...

So we get up and pick up my meds and then show up early. Well I was the only one in the office who was willing to not use the sedation so they got me in quick - numbed me up, and ripped them out. I was done before my appt was scheduled to begin lmao!

anyway...

The Teeth were huge, the roots were like soldered together... gross... but cool. I asked to keep them.

You know the world is strange when you have three blogs... well kinda three... one is private like a journal and one is myspace ...

So anyway while I was working I thought I would post a bit in here since it has been a while... I spruced up my "office" the other day... its not quite as dull as it was... too bad you cannot see the washer and dryer directly behind me lol.. it really gives a nice "clean" feeling to the room.

I have been geeking around a lot with my computers lately. I have Ubuntu on two PC's and installed virtual OS's on two others. Right now as I am working I am installing Eq2 on my vista virutal machine on my XP work computer... when the whole thing blows up I will have no one to blame but myself. I already was able to remote into my VM from the same computer lol... I have no idea why I do such things... I think maybe I am retarded.

My "fun" computer I have in here however is a POS... its an older dell, and it has a fast enough processor - but I cannot even watch hulu on the damn thing. I have 1.25GB memory in the dumb thing... I can up it to 2GB (I have the stick sitting here) but I am not sure why its such a pos... it should be better that this... I think it may be an issue with hard drive. This PC was an old computer I aquired out of a dumpster (ok ok seconds before it hit the dumpster lol) that was covered in viruses. I reformatted the PC, reinstalled XP and it was fine with the 256MB ram. I upgraded it to 1.25 and its faster but hulu wont work... it makes no sense...

So I may ditch the PC in a bit anyway and take over the one brenden is using because I orderd him a nice used PC off of Ebay that has a power supply big enough to take a new video card and run Eq2. Poor kid cannot play eq2 with us all in the same room... yes... we have like 6 desktops running and 2 laptops in my house. Did I mention I am retarded?

Scott and I decided we are going to take a trip to SC for a night with my "bonus" money/ gift card I got from work... we are going to see a concert and stay in a hotel while my friends watch our kids. I hope they behave. We never get away.

well I am going to go back to listening to dead air and wait for some person to call and tell me they superglued their ethernet cable into their computer or downloaded porn and are in a panic to get it off their computer... oops there is a call! this one likes to download illegal music and wonders why she has malware! yay!

So its a new year and a new set of challenges to overcome :-) I feel like there is so much to accomplish and time is rushing by. I just read the infamous book Fireproof and it was awesome. going to watch the movie this Friday with Scott - shhh... its a surprise lol.

We are planning some trips this spring. Probably a camping trip in a month or so, we want to wait until every risk of freezing temps is gone lol... I want to take the kids out into nature not huddle up in front of the fire until we have to evac to the camper lol.

I have been busy working as seen by the picture above lol... This room is my "batcave" where I can work from home in the quiet... not that my kids are loud... they are freakishly quiet most of the time, but its where I can go and do my work thing.

We went to nashville a couple weeks ago for a week, it was nice - but stressful. It will be a while before scott and I go away together again without the kids lol... atleast for more than a day or two where there are no plans. We do much better with plans. the good news is I brought home a ton of good deals from the Goodwill thift shops around nashville - some awesome shoes and clothes. I even founda NIB Bedazzler for kiteara lmao! circa 1990, and never been used!

The last 6 weeks have been really difficult for me, but I have faith than things will start looking up. I just have to learn to forgive even when I really dont want to - its a choice to forgive. sigh... its so much easier knowing what you need to do rather than doing it lol!

three weeks... three weeks... then i am done...

I am so ready to be done with the whole school thing... i am totally stressed but thanks to a few people who are keeping me sane I am doing much better than I thought i would be...

I went to IL a couple weeks ago and I fell in love with a house and I want to move back. It will be a nightmare to make it happen... but I am willing. I will miss working, however - the one true most awesomnist (wtf kinda word is that) friend I made there will be my friend no matter where I live. ;-)

Here is my dad and I, I am a total daddys girl. i would love to live close to him again... Maybe... maybe... maybe.... wish.... wish... wish....

In a couple weeks... no scratch that in a week and a couple days we re going to PA to hang with Tracy and Rob my most awesome friends and see hershey park, have a work picnic thing, and then go to Medieval Times :-) It should be awesome!! i am so looking forward to it :-)

the pic to the right is my Brother Jay, my sister Dar and my hot mama mom... and me... blech... I looked like shit, but it was the first time EVER that we were all together ... It was a good visit...

and here is baby Grant and I, he is so tiny but wow does he look like I am about to eat him lol... I wish I was closer to see all my people and their kids...

Well I am going to go to bed if I can... :-)

ok this is sooo cheesy... but thats me and my cap... so close to being done and sooooo freaking glad... I am so over this school crap lol...

Not much else is new, just working and having fun BSing while working lol... going on a trip back home next week and trying not to get sick before the trip.

I may actually go back to the shelter this weekend. I think I am ready to head back... I miss it.

break is over... back to work I go...

Collective Amnesia

Everyone forgets
Feelings that once were;
Disappear as if they never
Existed in the first place

Then the twinge returns
When we least expect
We take a deep breath
And forget again

Never speak of it
Never admit guilt
Everything happens for a reason
No regrets

Until the collective amnesia fades
Then we feel it
Anger, sadness, regret; sufficating
Push it away to breath.


Why is it, we are such a convenience society? We want to feel good now - seldom want to work for it... and always bitch about it when its hard?

Everyone I know has a shitty relationship of some sort. With an ex wife/husband, sibling, ex spouse, a parent, even their kid... its so easy to claim no regrets. I do it all the time. Everything that happened was exactly what i wanted at the time right? nope. I call bullshit.

I never said goodbye to my grandmother before she died due to my own stupidity and ego.

I did not say hello (which would have been goodbye) to a friend months before he would be killed due to feeling shy???

I have family who will never know how I feel about them because its "much too hard" to pick up the phone and start an "odd" convo.

Long story short - tell those you care about how you feel - because unlike the immortal words of Amy Lee, - "One day I'm gonna forget your name and one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain", the collective amnesia does fade and we do not forget how we feel.

So this week I have had an additional three kids living in my house... I have such respect for people who have 5 kids lol... while it has not been bad, its EXPENSIVE!

The food costs alone are enough to drive a anglo to drink lol... wait I already drink... well anyway...

Seriously the week has been nice. the kids are having a blast and our dogs even had a playdate with another dog this week... those pics will follow later - they are on my other computer.

So I am getting ready for my surprise trip... I am so excited to see some folks. Cannot say much since who knows who all is reading this jazz lol....

Not a lot is new, I am loving the job as much as someone should love a job. The hours go by fast and thats good. the only thing that sucks is the commute... the hallway from the bedroom is so long sometimes lol...

Well I never thought my hair wouldbe as long as it is again.. I think it was about here last year and then I had a bunch cut off. Since I am not addicted to infomercials and recently bought a very expensive flat iron (it has minerals and crap in it that make it work really good lol) I thought I would take a picture to show just how long the ol' locks have gotten...

The ironic thing is, the picture cuts off my hair. i probably need to use my tripod (which would make sense since I have it back lol) but the dresser in my room was all that was available.

So we are contimplating the idea of leaving NC... I am ready to go - however I like my job and I like homeschooling, and I like my house... but I hate where I live. Do not get me wrong there are some good things and good people - but I think i may just be too midwestern for this part of the world.

A lot (all) will depend on job opps for Scott. We have a list of places we refuse to move - pretty much anything in the south. We are not nuts about the west coast, and the NW is nice but too far from family.

New England is nice, but you have to drive through shit to get to it. I hate NY state, I hate the cities of baltimore, Washington DC, Philly - not because the places suck - the hatred is due to the traffic... pretty much if the I-95 runs through the state - I do not want to be there.

So that leaves the midwest (gee... isn't that convienient lol) IL is my first choice, however MO, IN, WI, MI, OH, ... would be ok. Who knows if it will pan out - we will see. We have been toying with the idea of moving for a couple years but this last couple years have made my personally desire strongly to leave the mentality of the south far far behind. from how they treat their animals to each other - most of the southern hospitality and style sucks to me lol...

On a wierd note - I have been having some crazy dreams lately. I think its time to re-read some sylvia brown books!!

Gosh....

What is up with us crazy women these days! I wish I could help others realize that if their man is a pain in their ass and they always are leaving or running off with someone else - they 1) maybe need to realize their man is not such a prize and no one else may want them... 2) should stop hoping the grass is always greener yet feeling they can flip flop when they see fit... or 3) maybe it is THEM that is the problem...

sigh... this is going out to my non-friend I will call to - keep her anonymous - "Bimborly".... get a clue sweetie. Slavery was outlawed a long time ago and you cannot own any other human being in this world. Its not fair to hold everything they love over their head so you can remain in control. Its just cruel. You may be jealous of everything not "you" but using your kids as collateral in your "negotiations" is just wrong. The only ones to suffer are your kids in this crap :-(

Holy sheepshit... I ditched the last blog I had as I mostly was blogging on myspace anyway and the postings were getting way too pissy and political - which may offend some of my friends who have to go to Iraq and or Afghanistan. They are doing their job, but I see no good of how our government is handling this situation. Too many good people are coming back with severe mental illness to include PTSD, anxiety, depression and even severe antisocial disorders. And of course the gov. does not need more therapists - which is hysterical since most people are waiting to see them. I could go on and on.... but I will not... today lol...

So today I am about 2 months away from being done with school... I am so glad. I will have a Masters Degree which is crazy. I am working part time for Embarq as a HSI tech. When your DSL sucks you call me - yay... its hard sometimes but I like it. Best part is I am working from home! Telecommuting ROCKS!

More tomorrow... gonna try and write in this one every day.

Well its been a while since I have posted anything. I experiemented with some other blogger deals but I like the simplicity of this one.

I have been helping a local animal shelter a lot lately and I think I have been doing a lot of good work. I say that not to toot my own horn, but because some great animals have been rehomed!

I graduated from college recently. It took forever to make it happen, but it did. I start grad school in November :-) Human Services here I come!

I am bummed about the hurricane jazz... those animals deserve so much more. There is this animal shelter around here that I helped with last year that is wanting to go down and save them... they cannot even take care of their current animals. It is really sad.

Well I am going to go for now, I need to make some more reference calls for the shelter!

Recently ran across this quote. Maybe our current president "Bushy Boy" should read it.

"Should any political party attempt to abolish social security, unemployment insurance, and eliminate labor laws and farm programs, you should not hear of that party again in our political history. There is a tiny splinter group, of course that believes that you can do these things. Among them are a few Texas oil millionaires, and an occasional politician or businessman from other areas. Their number is negligible and they are stupid"

-President Dwight D.Eisenhower.1952

http://alternet.org/story/22057/


Oh yeah... Bushy is the BEST... lol.....


"George's Vietnam

Then there's the war that is largely responsible for that drop in our international image. President Bush really screwed this one up. First, everyone not drinking the neocon Kool-Aid tried to warn George not to pull that trigger. Then Army chief of staff, Gen. Shinseki, warned Bush that a war in Iraq would not be the "cake walk" his neocon Rasputin, Paul Wolfowitz, promised. Instead, he warned, we would need a lot of troops in Iraq for long time. For that piece of advice he was first publicly embarrassed by his boss then shown the door, according to The New York Times:

At a Pentagon news conference neither Mr. Rumsfeld nor Mr. Wolfowitz mentioned Gen. Shinseki, the Army chief of staff, by name. But both men were clearly irritated at the general's suggestion that a post-war Iraq might require many more forces than the 100,000 American troops and the tens of thousands of allied forces that are also expected to join a reconstruction effort. "The idea that it would take several hundred thousand U.S. forces I think is far off the mark," Mr. Rumsfeld said.

That was 2003. Here's a story from today's paper.

BAGHDAD, Iraq, May 19 - American military commanders in Baghdad and Washington gave a sobering new assessment on Wednesday of the war in Iraq. ... In interviews and briefings this week, some of the generals pulled back from recent suggestions, some by the same officers, that positive trends in Iraq could allow a major draw-down in the 138,000 American troops late this year or early in 2006. One officer suggested Wednesday that American military involvement could last "many years."

Gee. Who saw that coming?"

http://www.cnn.com/2005/WORLD/europe/03/06/italy.iraq/index.html

Unreal... does anyone else see a pattern here?

Woo Hoo... Tax time was good this year! I bought me a couple new computers that should be here in a week or so. I am so flipping excited about these new systems!

I also installed a couple wireless cards on this computer (which will be my sons) and on my daughters computer, so when my new desktop comes I will have all computers online :-)

I have also been having a great time with my new VOIP internet phone! I have a phone from packet 8 (www.packet8.net) and I have a Skype line (user name Lynderville) and Teleo as well! email me if you want any of the numbers (P8 or Teleo) and we can chat!

well christmas came and went... only 11 more months before it happens again. joy Joy...

the last couple weeks have been hard - lots of personal ethical dillemas going on for me. Oh well, nothing some Zoloft or Paxil cannot help LOL....

I found a couple interesting articles today - here is one link.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/shared/spl/hi/picture_gallery/05/middle_east_shooting_in_tal_afar/html/3.stm

Be sure and read the captions next to the photos.... really excellent work we are doing killing parents and orphaning children.

Eminem - Mosh Lyrics

Intro:

(Kids: I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America..

(BOOM)

(Kids: And to the Republic..)

Eminem: People..

(Kids: For which it stands..)

Eminem: Hahaha..

(Kids: One nation under God.. Indivisible..)

Eminem: It feels so good to be back!

Verse 1:

I scrutinize every word, memorize every line
I spit it once, refuel, re-energize and rewind
I give sight to the blind, my insight's through the mind
I exercise my right to express when I feel it's time
It's just all in your mind - what you interpret it as
I say to fight, you take it as I'ma whip someone’s ass
If you don’t understand, don’t even bother to ask
A father who has grown up with a father-less past
Who has blown up now to rap phenomenon
That has, or at least shows, no difficulty multi-taskin' and juggling both
Perhaps mastered-his-craft slash entrepreneur
Who has helped launch a few more rap-bags
Who’s had a few obstacles thrown his way
Through the last half of his career
Typical manure, moving past that
Mister kiss-his-ass-crack, he’s a class-act
Rubber-band man, yeah, he just snaps back

Chorus:

Come along, follow me, as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me, and I wont steer you wrong
Put your faith in your trust, as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel we gon’ fight
We gon’ charge, we gon’ stomp
We gon’ march through the swamp
We gon’ mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors
Come on..

Verse 2:

All the people up top, on the side and the middle
Come together, let's all form this swamp just a little
Just let it gradually build, from the front to the back
All you can see is a sea of people, some white and some black
No matter what color, all that matters we're gathered together
To celebrate for the same cause, no matter the weather
If it rains, let it rain
Yeah, the wetter the better
They ain’t gon’ stop us - they can't
We're stronger now, more then ever
They tell us "No", we say "Yeah"
They tell us "Stop", we say "Go"
Rebel with a rebel yell
Raise hell - we gon’ let em know
Stomp, push, shove, mush..
Fuck Bush
Until they bring our troops home, c'mon, just..

Chorus:

Come along, follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me, and I wont steer you wrong
Put your faith in your trust, as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel we gon’ fight
We gon’ charge, we gon’ stomp
We gon' march through the swamp
We gon' mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors
Come on..

Verse 3:

Imagine it pourin’, it's rainin’ down on us
Moshpits outside the oval office
Someone’s tryin to tell us something
Maybe this is God just sayin' we're responsible
For this monster - this coward that we have empowered
This is Bin Laden
Look at his head noddin’
How could we allow something like this without pumpin' our fists
Now, this is our final hour
Let me be the voice, and your strength and your choice
Let me simplify the rhyme just to amplify the noise
Try to amplify it, times it, and multiply it by sixteen million
People are equal at this high pitch
Maybe we can reach al CIAda through my speech
Let the president answer our high anarchy
Strap him with a AK-47, let him go fight his own war
Let him impress daddy that way
No more blood for oil, we got our own battles to fight on our own soil
No more psychological warfare to trick us to thinking that we ain’t loyal
If we don’t serve our own country, we’re patronizing our hero
Look in his eyes, its all lies
The stars and stripes, have been swiped
Washed out and wiped and replaced with his own face
Mosh now or die
If I get sniped tonight, you’ll know why
‘Cuz I told you to fight

Chorus:

Come along, follow me as I lead through the darkness
As I provide just enough spark that we need to proceed
Carry on, give me hope, give me strength
Come with me, and I wont steer you wrong
Put your faith in your trust, as I guide us through the fog
To the light at the end of the tunnel we gon' fight
We gon' charge, we gon' stomp
We gon' march through the swamp
We gon' mosh through the marsh
Take us right through the doors
Come on

Outro:

Eminem: And as we proceed to mosh through this desert storm.. in these closing statements, if they should argue, let us beg to differ.. as we set aside our differences, and assemble our own army to disarm this weapon of mass destruction that we call our president for the present.. and mosh for the future of our next generation.. to speak and be heard.. Mr President.. Mr Senator..

(Kids: Hear us, hear us?.. Hahaha)

Sigh... what a long weekend last weekend was.

An organization I help with put on an event to raise money. My mom came down to help and honest to god it was chaos... There is nothing like waiting until the last minute to do the important things. I hate hate hate hate hate that. I will never do another event like that again.

So I am working on an online type market place to help the organization - which is a very large animal shelter. There are over 900 animals at the shelter and it is a no kill shelter. The event we had was an art auction and after it was all said and done, about $1500 went to the cats and dogs. not a lot of money, but due to the situation it was really good.

So yesterday I finished up 90% of what I had to do, and This Saturday I will complete the rest. Then I will do what I do best - work alone. I guess I am just a loner... a rebel LOL

I have some other things in the works that I am doing, so that will be good. I just need to stay away from the disorganization. It is just not healthy for me. Until I start on some medication to make me deal with shit better (ha ha... that is a joke people) I cannot handle the "everything with work out in the end" attitude.... My husband had that attitude for years and it about cost him a visit to divorce court.

On a positive note, my buddy is down under in the land of the croc hunter hopefully hooking up with the love of his life! He is a good guy and he deserves happiness.

Well I am going to go and see what I can throw together for Turkey day. I hope everyone has a good one!

"The story of what we've done in the postwar period is remarkable. ... It is a better and more important story than losing a couple of soldiers every day." George Nethercutt (R-WA)

Today in Iraq

How is that for a quote.... and it is legit too. He said it in October.



I hate to be cynical, but does this mean that people who voted this man into office should not be upset when they lose a child in Iraq and the news skims over the story?

Oh and the first link is a blog I found. I have been reading quite a few of these blogs from people in Iraq. Quite interesting to see how those who are there are observing the situation.

My husband and I were having a conversation the other day about this whole Iraq thing. He thinks it is a mess, however he is not upset we are there. He knows that eventually we would be there, so the *being there* is not what he sees a problem, it is *why* we are there, and *how* things are going that bothers him.

I, on the other hand, just wish we had done this a little better... I know how I feel right now being a spectator - If I were told I needed to be over there, or my loved one had to be over there I am sure I would probably go off the deep end *OR* try my best to convince myself we are doing the right thing so I did not go insane. I think this is the propaganda our government is throwing out to us. We are all unpatriotic and rude if we do not support this Iraq crap - and I just think that is wrong.

I hope this link works...

BBC NEWS Middle East Eyewitness: Smoke and corpses

Interesting... For some people I guess they would say that even the BBC is reporting lies... hmmm.... something tells me that most of the American people are just not getting the truth...

Boring Day

Well... I thought I would add to my lovely blog a bit... I guess make
up for the 9 months I did not post anything ha ha.

I am still trying to track down all my old files from my old sites
(crazylori.us, snyker.com, and lynderville.com. Some of the files are
junk, but I have several of my stories I have written in electronic
form.

My crazy lori site was pretty good - it was very pretty and
pinkish/purple - very girly. I had a lot of my photography on there
and it was pretty nice.

the Snyker site was made for my hubby - primarily about his vacation
to Canada last year.

The Lynderville Site was a virtual town I created based upon my
hometown in the blue state of IL. It had a bunch of stuff in there,
but the SHITTY web host I had before deleted it before I could back it
all up... oh well, you live and learn.

So I am sitting here bored... I should be doing my homework, but I
really am not in the mood. I have a house begging to be dusted and
here I sit... drinking my coffee thinking about how I can add to my
new website lol.

I think I will try and find the rest of my files now. Check the site
later in the files section to see if it has been updated.

OH... I just had to mention Dick Cheney... could it be #5??? Lets hope
not. I do not like him, but I hope he is ok.

And good wishes to the Edwards familiy! 16 weeks of Chemo is no joke,
but I am sure Elizabeth will show everyone how tough she is :-)
--
~Lori~

 

I found this online today.... on this website: www.MFSO.org. Here is the link to the letters frame. http://www.mfso.org/ongoing.html There is no way I could have ever written anything as perfect as this. My prayers are with this mother.

 

 

November 10, 2004   

 

Dear Bring Them Home Now,

 

On Saturday, November 13, 2004, I will take my 20-year old son to the airport.  He is at the end of his leave before departing for his first time to Iraq.  He's heard rumor that his unit will depart on or around Thanksgiving Day...

 

I should be feeling proud that my son is leaving to serve his beloved United States, but I am not.  Don't get me wrong --- it's not that I am not proud of my son for being who he is -- a kind and loving young man, the light of my life and my proudest accomplishment on this earth.  But, how can I be proud that my son is being forced to put his life at risk for a war that is just plain WRONG?  Our friends and relatives seem to speak in chants.  They say all the things they're expected to say, and, sadly, I think they actually believe what they're saying.  To believe or to say otherwise would be unpatriotic and disrespectful, wouldn't it?  I wish that someone would have the guts to be honest and say, "You know what, Laura?  This war is wrong on all counts, and it is wrong and shameful that Gavin is being forced to take part in it."  

 

What I find to be unpatriotic and disrespectful is the acquiescence; it's as if everyone belongs to some American cult, and I keep hearing these mindless words exiting from the lips of people who should instead be shouting with defiance at the injustice of this war.  I feel as if people tiptoe around me with pity, thinking I'm simply another distraught mother unable to accept that her son is going off to war.  They think my anger over this war is simply because my son's life is on the line.  They don't know me, not really...even the family and friends who've known me most of my life.  We learned in school over and over and over again the horrors of all past wars throughout the world, but I've always wondered "when do we teach peace?"  Now that would be something to take pride in....to know that my son was being asked to participate in the process of promoting peace.  

 

But, that is not the agenda of our current administration.  Our president has proudly proclaimed himself the "war president."  Instead of promoting peace, he chants the war call ---- "bring 'em on!" ----- and then he sends my son to lay his life down in response to his war chant.  He expects my son and all Americans to accept his belief that it is necessary and justified  ----- our killing of tens of thousands of innocent people in order to keep ourselves safe, because we, as Americans, are somehow more important than anyone else on this earth.  He expects us to believe that his course of action with this war will bring peace --- that death, destruction, and hatred is in and of itself the path to peace.  And I am supposed to take pride in this warped sense of superiority, in this path that leads away from peace, and proudly sacrifice my son to defend this mindset?   No, I won't do it.  Whether my son comes back home alive and whole or in a flag-draped coffin, I will have no pride in this war or in my son's participation.  This war is WRONG, and no amount of misplaced pride and no empty words of comfort describing my son's selfless sacrifice will change that.  I believe my son and all the other soldiers involved in this war are victims of this illegal and immoral war.  THAT IS A TRAGEDY, not a source of pride.

 

There, I've said it.  Many people will feel I've disgraced and disrespected all the soldiers currently in Iraq and all who've lost their lives thus far.   

On the contrary, I've spoken the truth about this war, and I believe the truth is the highest form of respect we can give.all our soldiers and their families.    

 

Thank you, Bring Them Home Now, for your efforts in opening up the minds of everyone to the tragedy of this war.

 

Sincerely,

Laura McCarthy

Eagle, Idaho  

Sheesh it is been a while. ok well I will be better... I promise.

Ok here is what has been keeping me so busy...

http://www.thehaven-nc.com

and

http://www.highlandsarc.org

I did both and help both organizations so I have neen busy dang it.... BUSY I say!

Yahoo! News - Man Lives with Dead Brother for 18 Months

WTF??? oh my Fecking stars... you would think the smell would have made this man realize his brother was DEAD!

TV ClubHouse

My god I am a daytime TV show addict... I have been watching this show Starting Over since it began a couple months ago. It is like a really good soap opera that moves at a normal pace. If you have not turned in, its on NBC, and their site is startingover.tv.

FitDay - Online Diet & Fitness Manager

Yeah Atkins... Its not a hard diet to follow, I mean I am never hungry so thats nice lol. Today though I went to a baby shower and they had cake... I was so good, I did not even go near it!

And I met some awesome new ladies, its always good to get out of the house :-)

The Word of the Day for October 27 is :



abstemious � \ab-STEE-mee-uss\ �adjective
:marked by restraint especially in the consumption of food or alcohol; also :reflecting such restraint


Example sentence :

My 100-year-old aunt attributes her longevity to her abstemious habits.


Did you know?

"Abstemious" and "abstain" look alike, and both have meanings involving self-restraint or self-denial. So they must both come from the same source, right? Well, that's partly true. Both get their start from the Latin prefix "abs-," meaning "from" or "away," but "abstain" traces to "abs-" plus the Latin verb "ten?re" (meaning "to hold"), while "abstemious" gets its "-temious" from a suffix akin to the Latin noun "temetum," meaning "intoxicating drink." (It makes sense, therefore, that abstemious behavior usually involves staying away from intoxicating drinks.) "Abstain" is the older word, first appearing in the 14th century; "abstemious" didn't turn up in print in English until 1609.

I think this is pretty accureate!

I got this from: http://editorial.careers.msn.com/articles/perfectcareer/

Monster: Discover Your Perfect Career Quiz: "Life as an ISFJ
(Intravert, Sensor, Feeler, Judger)
People of this type tend to be cautious, gentle and thoughtful; hesitant until they know people well then affectionate and caring; very literal and aware of the physical world; uncompromising about personal standards and easily offended; diligent and conscientious, organized and decisive.
The most important thing to ISFJs is living a stable, predictable life and helping people in real ways.
Great careers for ISFJs
Here are just a few popular and often satisfying careers for people whose Personality Type is ISFJ:
Primary care physician
Dietitian
Home health worker
Librarian / archivist
Interior decorator
Paralegal
Credit counselor
Customer service representative
Bookkeeper
Hospice worker
Guidance counselor
Special education teacher
Innkeeper
Property manager "

Things I suspect of being carcinogenic
1. mints;
2. tooth-whitener;
3. the Asian lychee-jelly snacks that burst on the scene circa 1997 and abruptly disappeared last year; (Except in Hawaii where TB is accepted in public places...)
4. the dentist-mandated fluoride session that makes you spit uncontrollably for an hour afterwards
5. anything that smells bad, especially the smell of cooked fish
6. computer screens
7. stress;
8. cell phones; not unexpected, unlike
9. plastic surgery or
10. bad television;

Hmmm, I think I will have a smoke... ;-)

RAPTURE

Has anyone spelled this perfume? Its made by victoria's secret, and I have been wearing it since I was ... well ok for 12 years. Its so funny when I realize you have been wearing the same perfume, or lipstick color, or even using the same brand of dishtowels for longer than your kids have been on earth lol. My perfume was a gift from a boyfriend, and although sometimes I spritz it on without even thinking, sometimes I think about him. Not like in a "OMG I love him" way, but in a "I miss him" kind of way. Is that bad?

Things I will do once I "have time"

I started this list a couple weeks ago, and I have done several things on it I said I would do.

1. Find all my sewing crap and organize most of it (DONE)
2. Make my friend her baby quilt (DONE)
3. Take a vacation
4. Eat fish.. or try too
5. Make my mom a gift (DONE)
6. Pray alot for a friend who needs it, and for another who could use a little luck (In Progress)