Well... its been a while... a lot has changed lol.

I am working f/t again, going to school part time, and helping at the shelter again... a lot lol.

I went to church for about a month - then quit. I just cannot get into it. Maybe its just here - but honestly after a month of it I feel further away from wanting to ever go back... I believe in God and thats where its going to stay. I may never go back to any form of organized religion.

My "friend" who pissed me off - well sadly that friendship is over. I have come to terms with a couple friendships being over except for the formality. There are a couple songs I wish I could mesh together that describe how I feel...



Snuff from Slipknot is pretty close... I am tired of doing what I have always done. Give 100% to those who return 10%, and vice versa.

Tomorrow I get to do something I do not like - I get to accompany a dog to the vet to be put down. there is no glamor is being the one who not only says this must be done, but actually drives the animal to the location. there is no joy in looking at an animal and saying goodbye - even if there is good reason.

I for the most part am doing fine in other areas - unless you count my sleeping schedule. Its terrible, non existant... like now - its 1am and I am not sleeping. I get up in 5 hours. I get to stay up for a long time, get no sleep and do it Saturday too....

One interesting tidbit is this was the week that the healthcare bill was passed. I am not sure how I feel about it - I am about 65% on board. I hate having higher taxes - but it needs to happen. If we dont pay for it up front we all pay for it behind the scenes. its like spaying and neutering... either pay to have it done or pay to have the county kill the over population.