Forgive and forget...

three words, but whoa are they hard to live. 8 months ago I was deeply hurt by a friend and even though I have kinda moved on from it, every now and then I am still filled with ... well rage is a good word for it. Not really at the person, because they are just broken and screwed up like me and everyone else in the world - but at myself for still being so petty as to care and also mad that I cannot just let it go completely.

So... my goal is to start 2010 without any of this baggage... I am not going to get the "I am sorry" that I wish I would get - this individual is just emotionally stunted enough they are unable to comprehend this is what would be nice. I am sure if I asked for it I would get it - but thats like asking for a complement lol. Kinda pointless.

Homeschooling the kids is going so well. I am so blessed to have such great kids who are so smart! Right now Kiteara's friend Rowen is here and they are all out in the living room creating their own monopoly game... down to the real estate cards! smart kids they are! a 13, 12 and 10 year old are all getting along well. All home schooled, and all brilliant.

God is good, and tomorrow I am going to do something i have not done in a long time... wait for it... I am going to church.... with the girls... crazy talk I know lol...